i went to a clinic yesterday to accompany my bff, harny to do some monthly check up. she's pregnant now. i happen to listen to her baby's heart beat. i'm so excited. speechless. euphoric. it's totally miracles. i know how much i want that thing inside of me too. but i'm too scared of commitment. i'm not ready for a married life. it sucks. i know. i saw people get hurt form commitment. though i try to be positive by saying 'just look at your parents and family'. they different. they are lucky to have each other as their partner. i hate hurting people. let alone to be hurt by others. that's why i chose to avoid it. i've been without it for almost 3 years now. i must say 2011 is the most effing fun year. i just love my current life so much until i want to marry it. marrying myself and what so-called inside it. nutsy!!!
it's almost a week i'm home now. i've been spending most time with my beloved Marsden Abden. i love going out with my dad for some unacceptable reason.
1. i don't have to drive.
2. any expense is not come out from my humble purse.
3. i can put anything in the trolley without think twice.
4. i can eat everywhere i want, from mamak house to italian restaurant.
i just love big daddy.
receive few complaint from everyone.
1. you're getting bored.
2. you're no longer full of fun.
3. you don't flirt anymore so we can get discount when dine in.
4. you don't talk that much.
5. you look like 2 months pregnant.
6. get a life.
the number 6 is the most stink one. it's from abang man.
p/s: have you ever met a girl like me before?
: never.
-is it a good thing or not?
