(i don't think you read my blog cause i don't really think you're give a damn to my so-called chaotic controversial life. but if you do read this, i do mean every single words i spill here)
i know we just know each other for such shortest moment. but to tell you the truth i do like what i see in you. i meant not physically. i don't care about those things anymore. i see you from my different point of view. i viewed you as someone who can lead me to something better. i see you as someone who guide me through the light. i know you can be the Adam that i've been waiting for so long. and i mean what i said here. why? never ask the Eve why.
i know i maybe not the nicest girl you ever met in your whole life as you're quite elder than me. i may not be the sweetest thing you ever saw. i talk too much. i curse every second. i laugh too loud. and i eat a lot. like a LOT. but this is just the way i am. i cannot be someone i'm not. i know you like it too. not like you liking me. not someone suitable for you to show to your mum. i'm sure there are thousands of girls out there who're much much better than me. but this is me. this is what i am. this is what i made of. fragile. porcelain. take it or leave it. deal or no deal.
i know for sure you're trying to deny something. you're on denial as what i am right now. and i'm so bored with that feeling. i'm tired of feeling unwanted. something i'm not used to. i know you've been hurt before. i'm quite familiar with those feeling. so what? to hell with it. GO ON. MOVE ON.
i cannot promise you anything except 100% commitment. cause currently that's what i have. i've been hurt before. so once bitten, twice shy. but i'm ready to give US a shot. perhaps nobody believe that i'm seriously serious to want you. i kid too much. i know. and i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for bothering you with my silly request. i'm sorry for asking too much from you. i'm sorry for every sorry i owed to ask from you. i'm sorry for out of the blue showed up to your perfect life and trying to run your town.
i know how hard it is to make a choice. to decide something big in life and i'm well aware of the consequence if things didn't turn out the way i want it. and that's why i keep praying for things happen the way it should be, just like what i want, the way you prefer it.
i know i maybe not the nicest girl you ever met in your whole life as you're quite elder than me. i may not be the sweetest thing you ever saw. i talk too much. i curse every second. i laugh too loud. and i eat a lot. like a LOT. but this is just the way i am. i cannot be someone i'm not. i know you like it too. not like you liking me. not someone suitable for you to show to your mum. i'm sure there are thousands of girls out there who're much much better than me. but this is me. this is what i am. this is what i made of. fragile. porcelain. take it or leave it. deal or no deal.
i know for sure you're trying to deny something. you're on denial as what i am right now. and i'm so bored with that feeling. i'm tired of feeling unwanted. something i'm not used to. i know you've been hurt before. i'm quite familiar with those feeling. so what? to hell with it. GO ON. MOVE ON.
i cannot promise you anything except 100% commitment. cause currently that's what i have. i've been hurt before. so once bitten, twice shy. but i'm ready to give US a shot. perhaps nobody believe that i'm seriously serious to want you. i kid too much. i know. and i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for bothering you with my silly request. i'm sorry for asking too much from you. i'm sorry for every sorry i owed to ask from you. i'm sorry for out of the blue showed up to your perfect life and trying to run your town.
i know how hard it is to make a choice. to decide something big in life and i'm well aware of the consequence if things didn't turn out the way i want it. and that's why i keep praying for things happen the way it should be, just like what i want, the way you prefer it.
p/s: i do spill my heart here. right at this moment. and i mean what i said.
