tapi bukan itu cerita sebenar. saya pulang sendiri kelmarin. budak kecik right behind me. tidak sanggup untuk bersama-sama memecut kereta 60-70km/j. hujan agak lebat sepanjang perjalanan dari bukit garam ke lahad datu. setiba nya di lahad datu, hujan sudah berhenti. now this is the real deal. keluar dari shell perdana, saya diiringi vios SS8**** K. i don't even know this guy and that damn car. but something caught my attention. the driver. he is a young bold guy. quite sexy in my eyes. tidak juga handsome. tapi ada kan jenis lelaki yang makin pandang makin handsome. atau lebih senang cakap, makin terserlah kejantanan di wajah nya. ya. saya biasa nya akan melt dengan lelaki seperti ini. dia seperti ingin cepat. saya pun memerlahan kan kenderaan untuk dia memotong. dia overtake saya. but then when he's right in front of me, suddenly he slow down his car and wave his hand signaled me to overtake him. and i was like whattafish he trying to do. i just ignore him. but he keep waving and signaling me to overtake him. so i did overtake him. stupidly, i slow down my car. i can see he smiling and laughed through my mirror. cute. it excited me a little bit. this silly thing we keep doing. macam bangang ja dua-dua. lama tidak rasa perasaan itu. perasaan bodoh. tau? faham? tidak kan? saya memang suka benda bodoh begini. but driving slow bored me. so i overtake the next car in front living him alone behind. surprisingly, dia bodoh-bodoh pun ikut overtake and when he right behind me, he highlighted me and smiling. cukup bodoh. dan bila penat saya pun biar dia begitu dan cuba ikut rentak nya. saya pun enjoy the moment spending my time checking him out through my mirror. naughty smile with a long straight nose. i think he is mix. lama sudah tidak jumpa lelaki kacak. everyone here, i mean in bukit garam have this very typical Sungai face or some Malay face.
i have this boy in my drama team which i think is so handsome. street smart look. cute with his glasses but when he is without, he looks totally ordinary. weird right how simple accessory can do big different to someone's face. but still he do look handsome. and i like his sort-of-carrot pants. it makes he looks like someone from the indie band. by the way, if anyone from school is reading this, go check him out at 4 Anggerik class. his name is Tahashshunan. see...even his name sound so erotic. haha.
home is heaven. because abang man is in leave for two days to attend his wife's niece's wedding and we can spend some time together. i like talking to him. we're having fun laughing last night while watching Animal Planet. his favorite. suddenly he asked me, how's my favorite guy. and i kinda not in the mood to talk about him. so i just said he is doing good and we doing just fine. nothing interesting happen this whole month and we spend our time try to live our life in our own. it's actually more to me trying to live without talking much to him. and i softly said to abang man that i miss someone i can called my man. so to soothe the tense, i laughed and deny it. again yeah, i miss him badly.
p/s: despite all the things that excite me, still i wish it is not that vios right behind my back. i secretly wish it's che maznah...;)
