novocaine

it was always you.
it will always you.
cause i'll wait in the rain for you.

figuratively

simple yet meaningful.

mengena ni.

i met a guy, we talked and it was epic

i texted him saying how good looking he was that day.
and the next day he wore that checkered shirt that always drives me crazy.
as if he purposely torturing me.

H.

the air i breathe

you're a lonely soul
cause you won't let go
of anything you hold.

dirty laundry

i sometimes love to wear the only K's shirt that i owned. it gives me some kind of indescribable feeling whenever i wear it. feels like home. i love the fresh smell especially when i just took it out from my drawer. it reminds me of his smell. he always has this fresh laundry smell when we hang out at home. that's the reason why i never change my detergent. i want to keep that smell in my memory. it reminds me of before. it reminds me what it feels like to be in a relationship with human being. something that i tend to forget how lately.

things are getting worse between orca and me. i maybe look like the happiest one at my work place. i laugh like i'm having the most awesome life. i smile 'like' sincerely. but once i'm with orca, different things happen. i start making love with him. riding him fast. being a maniac. being a moron. a jerk to him. i love to listen to music loudly. singing like no one can hear me. duh...literally. who can hear me sing in my car.

why do i feel this way? like i have the world on my shoulder and i don't know how to get rid of it. i haven't cried for quite some time. i slowly torn inside.

when can K become H?

or

when can H become mr.H?

another productive day

if we're not stuck with the vampire, we enter the world of magic. i find that strong headed self-centered arrogant brat, Prince Arthur, fascinating with his smirk and sarcastic comment towards Merlin. and he looks dashing in his knight wear. he reminds me of James Franco in Tristan and Isolde.

and i'm trying to finish The Choice by Nicholas Sparks by tonight cause according to my plan, i'm going to finish my exam paper this weekend. as far as i'm concern, i haven't done anything related to school.

did i mention i took a nap every one hour since morning?

you, 

listen to the track when they were making love during the honeymoon.

one

one did not realize that one is gay until someone knock some sense to one's head.